2020 12 02
Today I made a presentation to a group of researchers for the first time. The presentation took place online. I explained my doctoral thesis and the project I am carrying out in Germany. I introduced myself a little, while explaining these.
I was a little excited, but I am so tired that I have no mood for excitement. As a matter of fact, my excitement arose after the presentation was over. Because I explained a macro economics thesis written in Turkish, which is very difficult to explain in English, to Micro economics experts who are mostly German. It was very difficult for me to communicate the concepts. I shared both my presentation notes and what came to my mind in the flow.
Human concentrations usually dissipate after 25 minutes. I tried not to exceed 60 minutes, assuming that our group of researchers was highly intelligent and could maintain long-term concentration. I think I spoke for exactly 60 minutes. There was a question and answer session for about 12 minutes.
What do I want now? Do more research and tell more people. This is different from missing lectures. Yes, I like to tell what I know. But I realized that it was more enjoyable to tell about a research I did. Until now, it was not possible for me to focus on doing research because of the working conditions in Turkey, and a little bit because of my love to give lectures. A doctoral dissertation, two books, two articles and a few papers… However, I should have written more. Because just like the lectures, I can share my research with people. I understood this much better today.
I need more research, more projects and more collaboration. It is slowly becoming clearer where I will go and it is very good to understand this.
Additional note: This morning we saw that our baby was fine. She is still fidgety. But Derya needs plenty of rest.